Before i left Rexburg

1. Did you read my last post? I started a new blog for me and Karl, and I'll be posting bits of of our story over there once a week until we're married in September. Mostly to wean myself off of this blog. tear tear. old friends, you know?

anyway, i posted the first part of our story yesterday! Enjoy the blow by blow.

2. I'm hopping on the back track train before i leave to Provo for BYU Sports Camps again. Care to join me?

Stephanie and I kidnapped Sophia one day, because we missed her. 

also here's just a miss mash of a bunch of random things. haha. i don't remember why i kept all of these things, but i did. so here ya go. 

snapchat. i don't know. dont' judge me. 

I miss my sophita. 

and this is Ryan Cobar. he was our lil homie all Fall and Winter semester. this is him trying to hug me goodbye. hahaha. 

OH HEY!

very very very long story short:

I'M NOT GOING DEAF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for literally months and months, i'd been dealing with severe pain and dizziness and nausea related to my right ear. I'd been to a bunch of doctors and specialists and none of them could pinpoint a cause. one specialist even had the gall to tell me that i was completely fine. Even though he administered a hearing test that SHOWED definite hearing lost. 

ugh. 

sorry. 

that guy is still a sore spot for me, because i saw him at Christmas and he said nothing was wrong. 

AND THEN

i finally went back to my pediatrician in Rexburg, because my preschoolers were commenting on my vertigo. "You're all wobbly today, miss melissa." okay, i have an observable problem. embarrassing. 

So i went to the doctor. and took more tests. and got more treatments. and the specialist did more tests, and showed me my charts and results and that they perfectly overlapped with other lab results that had to do with nerve damage. he took a look, and yup. 

it wasn't meniere's disease, like some other doctors thought. 

It was nerve damage.

So he gave me medication and like a light switch, i was completely fine. 

no more dizzy. 

no more pain. 

the hearing damage was permanent, but luckily it wasn't horrible, and the medication stopped it. 

i don't understand how it all works now. but when the doctor was explaining it, it all made sense and since the medication, i've literally not had a single problem aside from a plane ride, which is normal for a lot of people. 

I'M NOT DIZZY EVERYDAY. 

I'M NOT IN CONSTANT PAIN. 

I DON'T HAVE NAUSEA.

I CAN DANCE AS MUCH AS I WANT.

I CAN FULLY SUBMERGE MY HEAD UNDERWATER FOR MORE THAN 5 SECONDS AT A TIME AKA I CAN GO SWIMMING. 

I DON'T HAVE TO SIT DOWN EVERY 3 MINUTES TO CATCH MY BALANCE.

I  DON'T HAVE THINGS BLOCKING MY HAPPINESS, AND IT'S SO GREAT!!!!!

the night before many of us left, we had our last roommate council. 

aka we went around and thanked each other for everything we'd done for each other this semester.

it was real emotional. 

we all cried at one point. the prayer was real tender. i loved these girls. 

so so much. 

i wheel meece dem vedy mush. 

but really. 

that semester was incredible. 

this was how our apartment looked on the last day:

and this was Stephanie's OOBER packed van as we headed out to P-town. 

Stephanie GRACIOUSLY let us stay the night at her house, because she's PERFECT. and the next day, we said goodbye to the trio.

these humans changed my life. 

thanks, homies. 

BYE REXBURG, YOU WERE REAL GOOD TO ME. 

SEE YA SOMEDAY.