At our church's summer Girl's camp, the oldest girls get to be youth counselors over groups of younger girls. my Junior and Senior years of High School i had the immense privilege of being counselor to the same group girls both summers.
and Alexis was one of those girls.
the best part of girls camp is getting to know someone's heart.
because Girls camp isn't the same as every day life.
it's better.
so at girls camp, you see the very best parts of people. you see their potential, and you love in a way that is different than any other setting could produce.
So maybe i didn't know the "every day Lexi", so i didn't know her all that well.
but i knew the best parts of her heart, and i'm grateful for that.
I knew of her internal struggles and did little to lend a hand because i figured it wasn't my place or that because i hadn't been through similar enough trials, it wasn't my place to give her advice. I didn't even tell her that i believed in her, even though i did. Because i'd seen her potential. I didn't even try to help and that haunts me.
but i also know that everything she was going through was bigger than i imagine.
And that ultimately, she can receive the help she so desperately wanted through the sacrifice of our Savior and Brother, Jesus Christ.
and i hope that she can be at peace now.
and i hope she knows that i cared for her.
Rest in peace, darling girl.
Love, Penguin Melissa
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